Saturday, December 20, 2008

Going back to the doctor

Several months ago Darren and I decided we were going to stop trying for a baby for a while and just have a good rest of the year.  We weren't even going to talk about it until after our trip to Disney World in January.  It's been a really good year for us.  We have traveled a lot and have had a lot of fun.  Well, now the year is about over and our trip to Disney World is 3 weeks away.  I have been thinking a lot lately about trying again, and I decided to go ahead and bring it up with Darren.  I definitely wanted to go back to the doctor first since we kind of left all the testing up in the air.  I know it can take a while to get an appointment, so I wanted to get that ball rolling now.  Darren and I didn't really discuss much.  I just told him I wanted to think about it again and I want to go to the doctor.  He agreed so I went ahead and made an appointment.  As I suspected they didn't have an opening until February 3rd anyway.  It's actually perfect timing for me.  We will have been back from our trip for a couple of weeks and I will be ready to do what I need to get things figured out.  We will see what happens.  In the meantime, the nurse said she will give my file to the doctor and if there is any test she wants to run before my appointment they will let me know.  I will update again after my appointment, but that is where things stand as of now.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Still on the fence

We are still on the fence about having a kid. The car has been purchased...well leased. Some money has been set aside. We will visit the issue again late January/early February. Soo....till then check out our other blogs!

Friday, July 4, 2008

The Elephant in the corner

So I've been a bit quiet lately. The topic of having a baby hasn't been discussed much between Kelli and I. We both just agreed to get through 2008 and maybe try again in 2009. It's been more than a year since this site started. Plans were that this site would be around for just one year and then we would have a site similar to Eric and Angela. Obviously that didn't happen. The first miscarriage was upsetting. The second was devastating. We went to the doctor looking for answers....and none were given. Trying again isn't out of the question.....but I'm not positive I want to try again. I am pretty sure Kelli does. Whenever she is around our nieces she does seem quite happy to play with them and just being around them. Me..they are fun until they cry or poop.

So yeah...there will be infrequent updates on this site for the duration of 2008. Feel free to check out our other blogs at www.stillageek.com and www.richmo32.com.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Back to Square One

Well, my results came back from the blood tests at the hematologist and I am apparently completely normal.  I don't have a deficiency at all.  This means a few things.  1) I am completely normal and healthy, 2) LabCorp is a bunch of f#%$ ups and they screwed up my tests 3) I have no clue what to do next.  They were going to contact my gynecologist today and give her the results.  I will wait a day or two to see if she calls me.  If not then I will call her and see if there are any more tests to do.  I am really conflicted about this.  On the one hand its great that I don't have any problems, but on the other hand now I have absolutely no answers to the reason for my miscarriages.  It was nice to believe there was a fixable reason and now there is just uncertainty again.  There is a possibility that I will not find an answer.  I'm not sure what we will do then.  I am inclined to try one more time anyway and just see what happens.  It could be that I just had 2 miscarriages for various reasons and the next time will be fine.  I would hate to go through a miscarriage again though.  I'm going to try not to think about it for a few days and hopefully I will feel better if I can talk with my doctor.  This has been a very frustrating experience and I am very unhappy at the moment.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

My Trip to the Hematologist

I finally had my appointment on Friday, but it turned out to be much less productive than I had hoped.  First, the hematologist does not believe my test results.  He explained to me that a person with a typical protein C deficiency would show numbers in the 40-50% range, while normal is over 70%.  My number is less than 1%.  He thinks that is an impossible number and I would most likely be dead if that were true.  He thinks I may really have the deficiency, but someone screwed up the test.  So, they went ahead and drew more blood to redo the test.  The hematologist office is also an oncology office (that's for cancer patients if you weren't sure).  They do the blood draws right in the office.  It was really nice to just walk to another room to get my blood drawn, and it was also really nice to have a real expert draw my blood.  This guy spends all day drawing blood from cancer patients who have difficult veins, so I was very easy in contrast.  It was the best blood draw experience I have had in a long time.  Anyway, the results should be back by the middle of next week.  If I really do have the deficiency then there is no treatment needed currently.  I am perfectly healthy, so I don't need medication or anything.  If I get pregnant I will just do the heparin shots, and I should be fine.  Of course, if his test results come back normal then the first results were really screwed up and I don't have a protein C deficiency after all.  I would be really upset if that's the case, first because LabCorp really f'd up and who knows if they ever get results right.  All my results could be wrong.  Second, if the results are actually normal then I don't have an answer for these miscarriages after all and I am back to square one.  I really liked knowing there was an answer, and I have no clue what we are going to do if this comes back normal.  I'm sure my ob/gyn has some other stuff she might want to test, but I don't know.  If there isn't anything else to test for I'm not sure what we will do.  I don't want to give up on this, but I'm terrified of having another miscarriage.  I'm not going to think about it right now.  I will just wait and see what the results say.  I'm really getting tired of the waiting game though.  My patience has a limit.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

About that Appointment...Didn't Happen

When I talked to the receptionist at the doctor's office last week she told me my appointment was on Tuesday, June 10th at 1:30pm.  I even had her confirm it again before I hung up to make sure I had the time correct.  Well, on Saturday I got a bunch of paperwork in the mail that I needed to fill out before my appointment.  One of the papers had my appointment information on it and it said my appointment time was 10:00am.  Nice.  I called yesterday in the morning to find out which time was correct.  It was the 10am time.  I'm not sure what the lady I talked to was smoking, but she should quit.  It's affecting her job performance.  Anyway, I stayed late on Monday and got everything squared away at work before I left because I wouldn't be there till the afternoon today.  Then I got home and received a phone call from the doctor's office.  It turns out my doctor was stuck out of town and wouldn't be in the office today.  Just my luck!  It's just one thing after another.  The receptionist then gave me a choice.  She said I could either reschedule my appointment for next Wednesday or get an appointment on Friday afternoon if I go to their other office in North Richland Hills.  For those who don't know where that is, its an extra 20 minute drive for me.  Neither of those options sounded good, but I took the Friday appointment.  I've been really anxious about this appointment anyway and I just want to have it as soon as possible, even if it means an extra drive.  So, my new appointment is this Friday at 1:30pm.  Hopefully it sticks this time.

In other news, I just found out that one of my coworkers is pregnant.  In my entire career with my company there has always been someone pregnant.  Well, we were beginning to wonder who was next because the current pregnant person is in labor as we speak.  I am very happy for my coworker because they have been trying for a while.  It will be her 2nd baby.  She told me she was afraid to tell me because she thought I would be upset.  I understand why she would think that, but I'm not upset at all.  I'm very happy for her!  I did get a bit upset last time someone told me they were pregnant though.  A former coworker came back to visit and told me she was pregnant.  It did hurt, but only because it was an accident and she and her boyfriend weren't even sure they wanted it at first.  Those situations bother me.  Happy couples who want a baby don't bother me at all.  I say yay for them!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Finally Got an Appointment

I went in to the doctor on Tuesday morning for my blood test and while I was there I filled out the medical release form so I could get my appointment with the hematologist.  I think most people have heard some of my horror stories about having my blood drawn.  If you haven't heard them just know people have a really hard time drawing my blood for some reason, and I always tell them beforehand to use the small needles and be really careful.  First off, they made me wait for 15 minutes because they couldn't figure out what tube to draw my blood in.  Apparently the test I was having done isn't a very common one and the code that was written on the paper wasn't correct.  They tried to call and get the correct code, but my doctor's office wasn't open for phone calls yet, and I guess they couldn't get through to their own help line.  I was only supposed to have one tube of blood drawn, but since they couldn't figure out which tube to draw it into they decided to draw 4 tubes because one of them would probably be correct!  Yay for me!  I always seem to be the interesting case.  At least the lady did it correctly on the first try this time.  I gave her my normal speech before the draw and she told me that she would get it correct on the first try because she was hungry and she didn't want to mess around with me.  I say whatever motivates you to do it right the first time is just fine by me!

So, yesterday I got a phone call from the hematologist's office.  They received my medical records and called to give me my appointment time.  Once again I have to say I love my doctor!  It normally takes 7 to 10 days to get medical records transferred, but she got it done quicker to make sure I could get an appointment as soon as possible.  The receptionist told me my appointment is for next Tuesday at 1:30pm.  I found that pretty funny actually.  She didn't ever ask me if that would work for me.  She just said that was when it was.  Perhaps they are just really busy and that is the only time they could actually get me in.  I'm really glad its so soon.  I was honestly expecting it to take a few weeks.  I'm anxious to get some answers from the doctor after all that I've read on the internet.  I'd like to have some actual expert opinion to refute or corroborate what I've read.  The receptionist told me she was going to call my doctor back and let her know when my appointment is because my doctor is going to discuss my records with the hematologist in person.  I don't know if this is normal practice for her or not, but I am lucky to have a doctor willing to go so far for me.  I will update on Tuesday after my appointment.

Monday, June 2, 2008

But Wait! There's More!

So, the day after I talked to my doctor I called the hematologist office to schedule an appointment, but they wouldn't let me schedule one until they have my medical records.  I called my doctor's office to get the records transferred and was told I need to come in to fill out a release form and then it would take 7 to 10 days.  So, this could take a while.  Then, about 5 minutes after I hung up with the doctor's office they called back to give me more test results.  This time it was the dumb nurse, not my doctor.  She told me that in addition to the protein C deficiency I also have a genetic mutation where I received 2 ineffective copies of the MTHFR gene.  This leads to higher than normal homocysteine levels in my blood and a reduced ability to absorb folic acid.  It can be serious, but is apparently easily controlled with high doses of folic acid and B12.  First they have to check my homocysteine levels though.  This involves a fasting blood test.  Yay for me!  I just love to have my blood drawn.  I am going in first thing tomorrow to get the blood work done and fill out the paper work to release my medical records.  Hopefully I will have an appointment with the hematologist by the end of next week.  In the mean time I have been doing some of my own internet research on my issues.  First off I am very frustrated at the amount of scientific papers on the subject that I can't read!  I get all these links to abstracts, but I can't access them without a subscription.  I think I can still get access through my old University of Florida school days, but I don't have a password anymore.  I may need to look into getting one.  Most of the stuff I came across were message boards talking about the subject.  There definitely seems to be a lot of women out there with this problem and daily (or twice daily) heparin injections seem to be the standard course of treatment.  I haven't read any bad things about doing the injections, except for the pain and bruising from the injections.  Everyone seems to have perfectly healthy babies after suffering varying numbers of miscarriages.  The heparin really seems to do the trick.  I am very hopeful, but will still wait and see what the hematologist says.  Stay tuned!  I will try and keep things updated as I learn more.  It's very interesting to me that we started this website a year ago with the intention that our "journey" would be quick and easy.  It has since turned into much more than anticipated.  Perhaps there is a reason for it.  Hopefully this site can be of some help or comfort to other people out there.  I'm sure it will all work out in the end, and we are stronger and smarter for having gone through it all.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

And We Have A Winner!...

Yep, that's right folks!  It has taken 2 months and a lot of blood, but I now know what my problem is.  My doctor called today with the news.  Before I go further I just have to say that I love my gynecologist!  She is the most wonderful doctor I have ever dealt with and I may not have any answers today if she wasn't such a wonderful doctor.  She ordered several strange blood tests for me a few weeks ago and I had an appointment to discuss the results with her set for next week.  Well, she called me today to let me know she knew what the problem was and I don't need to see her in person to talk about it.  What I need is a Hematologist.  Yep, I have a blood disorder.  It's called protein C deficiency.  She said mine is more than a deficiency though.  I pretty much have no protein C at all.  She said it barely registered and she had to consult with 3 different specialists before she was comfortable talking about it with me.  Apparently a person with protein C deficiency has a problem with blood clots.  So, both of my pregnancies started out normally, but then when the placenta tried to form it couldn't because I was clotting so much.  The really good news is there was no genetic abnormalities there.  If I didn't have this clotting problem I would have had a perfectly normal, healthy baby.  I have been really busy and haven't had any time to do research on this problem, but my wonderful sister looked up some things for me.  She tells me that all I have to do in order to have a normal pregnancy is get a heparin shot EVERY SINGLE DAY for my entire pregnancy.  Did you get that?  I need a shot EVERY DAY!  That will really suck.  Of course, that sounds like a very simple solution, and I am absolutely willing to do it if that's what it takes.  I would get used to it pretty quickly.  Its much better than having some problem where we would have to go through invitro fertilization or something drastic like that.  I can do the shot thing.  Of course, that's just preliminary Google research.  I will still need to wait and see what the specialist says.  This diagnosis explains some things though.  I have had knee problems for several years now, and I have a lot of leg pain.  A clotting disorder would definitely explain both of those things.  It means I have really poor circulation which causes my pain.  Its a big comfort to have a reason for something that has bothered me for so long.  I also think this explains why people have a hard time drawing my blood.  It just doesn't flow like it does for normal people.  I am at a much higher risk for blood clots though, so I need to be careful and keep the circulation in my legs going.  That's all I have for now.  I will update again after my appointment with the specialist.  If anyone reads this who has more knowledge on the subject, please feel free to let me know.  I'm very interested in any information I can get.

Friday, April 4, 2008

I guess I have to say something

I hate that this happened again.  I hate even more that I had to go back to the hospital for another D&C.  I have no clue what's wrong, and its really hard to believe that we are having trouble having a baby.  You see and hear about people who have problems, but you never think it could happen to you, especially when there is absolutely no history of fertility problems in the family on either side.  Its even harder when I see shows like Maury Povitch.  I'm a big fan of those DNA paternity testing shows, but they are hard to watch this week.  How is it that all these complete idiots and trashy people can have babies with absolutely no problems, and I can't?  I am perfectly healthy and I do nothing wrong.  I wouldn't even drink caffeine or take any medication at all because I didn't want something to go wrong.  I know its beyond my control.  Its hard for both of us.  Darren seems a bit more discouraged than I am.  I hope he doesn't want to give up quite yet.  Even with all the pain I am hopeful.  We are going to do some investigation into what the problem is, and go from there.  Most of these problems can be easily fixed and I don't want to say we are out of the game until we know more about the problem.  The first step is to do a chromosome analysis on the placenta.  It should take 4 to 6 weeks for an answer.  If that comes back normal there are several other tests that can be performed, mostly easy blood tests.  Even if we never end up having a baby I would still like an answer, so I will do whatever tests the doctor wants to do.  It may take a while.  I'm not sure.  For now we are just going to live life like we have been.  We have lots of plans for the next few months to carry us through the summer, and then we will see what happens after that.  I will update things as test results come in.  I know there are lots of other people out there who have problems like us.  I guess most just never talk about it.  We are definitely not like most people.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Again

Again
By: Darren Byrd

Here I sit in this waiting room
My wife has been taken away
People peek in every now and then
No windows in the room….not sure if it’s night or day

Going through this the first time
We were told it shouldn’t happen again
Again we drove to the hospital
Faint smile I try to pretend

That it doesn’t tear me apart
For my wife I have to appear strong
Starring off in the distance
I thumb through my MP3 player for another song

Is it too much to ask for a normal pregnancy
Literally millions have done it before
Flipping through the same miscarriage pamphlet
I let it fall from my fingers….to the floor

“Everything went smoothly,”
“Your wife is doing well”
“Gather your things and follow me,”
I felt horrible…but you couldn’t tell

Time to put my game face on
I enter the room and fake a smile
She slowly opens her eyes
The nurse says she’ll be back to check in a while

Initial here, Initial here, Sign
She is released and I leave to get the car
I know my way around this place too well
I take a short cut….three turns…not too far

Will we try again?
Right now I am not so sure
The pain of going through this twice is enough
A third time??? I’d rather not endure

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Gonna sit out for a while

Well we struck out again. Kelli went to the doctor Friday. During the sonogram the yolk sac measured for someone at 5 weeks while we were at 9 weeks. We went in again today to confirm everything. The D&C will be performed tomorrow. The doctor will then run test on the placenta to see what's going on. We will be taking a break and sitting on the sidelines for a while. At least for the rest of 2008. Will we try again? Dunno. Worst case scenario we can be the coolest Aunt and Uncle on the planet.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

1577846.3 minutes

As of today we have been married for 1577846.3 minutes (not 65700....there is a reason the US in behind in math!) .....or 3 years. If someone told us 3 years ago we would be preggo now....I would have laughed at them and then sucked down a beer. My how things change.

Monday, March 24, 2008

So maybe Kelli isn't crazy

I wasn't sure where to post this. I was going to put it on my flying site but it didn't totally fit. It could have gone on stillageek.com....but it's more about us than me....so here it will sit.

I flew with my first woman captain today. Very nice lady who was in the CRJ training class after mine. I had met her in the crew room a few times but never flew with her. Today was the day. I got to work early and was eating breakfast in the crew room. We were the only ones there and soon figured out we were flying to Kileen and back. Short flight. I thought "wow for a Captain she sure is a sloppy dresser," as she had her shirt untucked. I sipped my coffee and looked again....it was a maternity shirt! Fast forward to the plane. She started talking about her pregnancy and I let her know about Kelli being pregnant. Turns out she is just as fanatical about stuff as Kelli. No caffeine, lots of healthy food (Kelli does ok in this arena), no medications for pain and so on. She took the leg down to Killeen and made a buttery smooth landing. As we were rolling down the runway she sighed and commented that she was glad it was smooth to avoid the breast pain from a rough/normal landing. She jokingly scolded another first officer for landing a little rough. Now the pressure was on. My leg was next. Seeesh. The flight back we discussed all sorts of pregnancy related topics and how kids are the best thing in the world. On final for 18R at DFW I was bringing down the plane of 70 passengers + 4 crew +2800 pounds of cargo equaling 65000 lbs as slow as possible. Around 50 feet I started to bring the power out. At 20 feet I got a little updraft and I could see the Captain tensing up out of the corner of my eye. A smooth wrist move and I slowed the descent. Butter smooth. She exhaled. I then applied full reverse and slowly slowed down.

The Captain was very nice to fly with. She has a great personality and is able to take charge in a fair and balanced way. I looked forward to flying with her again.....after the pregnancy....too much pressure on my landings. HA!

Friday, March 21, 2008

Well traveled baby

Our child has already crossed the border. For my birthday we took an overnight trip to Niagra Falls, Ontario Canada. I love my benefits!
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Monday, March 17, 2008

Available in Blue or Pink

I was getting fitted for some new work slacks and saw this shirt. It's available in blue or pink. I will purchase once we know.

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Friday, March 14, 2008

More blood tests

I got the results back from the 2nd blood test and my total HCG has climbed to over 2700. The doctor says things are looking fine, but I have to go back for another test on Tuesday. I'm hoping this is the last one. I really hate having my blood drawn. I had bad experiences in the past, so I'm always really nervous about it. The women at the lab I go to have always been great though. I haven't had a single problem with them yet. My first ultrasound is on the 31st, just over 2 weeks away. I still have my moments of panic, but I'm trying to be optimistic and listen to my doctor when she says things seem fine. I have had moments of nausea, but nothing significant. My main problem is breast pain. They always hurt, and at times its almost unbearable. I'm also really tired all the time. I fall asleep when I get home from work most days. That is definitely not normal for me. My doctor says nausea, tiredness, and breast pain are her top 3 symptoms, so it would seem I am doing fine on that front. Its just a wait and see game now. I will be absolutely thrilled to get past this part of the pregnancy. I don't think all my fears will go away until I hit that 2nd trimester. Oh well, at least I have things to keep me busy in the meantime. Work is constantly busy, and Darren and I are planning a trip to Pittsburgh for his birthday next week. Should be fun!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

My husband is an a-hole!!

See below....

Raising the baby right....off to a good start

So our child will be raised the right way....the Republican way. I bought a "Thank you President Bush" sign along with a McCain sign. Kelli has never bought a sign. Too ashamed to support a Democrat..oh wait that's right the Democrats can't figure out what they are doing.

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The Winner is........going to be

So we went and test drove the Mazda5 tonight. Loved it. Not as "hip" as the Scion XB...but it's more refined and has the features I want as is. The Mazda5 also has a sunroof.....a must have. So what now? Well....I gotta find a way to unload my car. Anyone want to buy an Acura TSX with 36000 miles? I will sell it for payoff!!! I refuse to roll in any negative equity. If it can't happen now then I will just have to wait. I am getting new caritis. The Mazda5 has plenty of room for 6 people with 3 rows of two seats. It has sliding doors with power windows that go all the way down. Ton's of headroom and plenty of storage room. Gas mileage is less than what I get now but still in the upper 20's on REGULAR gas. Funny thing happened at the dealer though. They found the Mazda5 I wanted (Black outside, Black inside) in Oklahoma City. They said it would be $400 to transport it down here. Umm then I reminded the salesman I work for American Eagle and can fly there for $10. Yeah....about that fee.

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Oh yeah Kelli got pissy that I posted after her so please scroll down and read hers next. Thanks!

The results are in...Finally!

So I called back for my results Monday afternoon. Guess what? They didn't have them all! Apparently the lab forgot to even do one of the tests so the nurse really didn't tell me much. She said the lab was going to rush the last test and they would have the results by the end of yesterday. Of course they didn't. I finally heard back this afternoon. The nurse told me my hormone levels were "fine", but that isn't good enough for me. I asked for some hard numbers. She said my Progesterone levels were at 23.3 and the normal range is 20-45. My HCG level was at 1173. I asked what normal was for that and she was very reluctant to give a range because it varies so widely. I did look it up on the internet and I got a range of 5 - 7000. That's a huge range! The nurse said it was more important to make sure that the HCG was increasing at a normal rate, so they had me go back today and give more blood. This time they are just looking at the HCG levels. It has been 5 days since the last test, so my levels should be double or triple the previous number. If that's the case then everything should be on track and just fine. I'm pretty confident that everything is going well, but there is always that concern in the back of my mind. I will just have to wait and see.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

The Finalist

Gas mileage...safety....reliability....style...cool factor. What I am looking for in the next car. The two finalist are the 2008 Scion XB and the Mazda 5. Thoughts? Both are right at $20K for the way I want them. The XB is "cooler" and has most custom options that I can add later. The Mazda 5 is more family like and has more room for....baby stuff.


Mazda 5
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Scion XB

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Saturday, March 8, 2008

Tell me something I don't know....

I was supposed to call the doctor yesterday to find out the results of my blood tests. I called and was told a nurse would call me back soon. Soon at the doctor's office apparently means 2 hours. When the nurse called me back I explained what information I was looking for and she told me they only had part of my results back so far. I asked if she could give me the results she had. No joke, this is what she told me. "Well, you don't have AIDS and you are O positive blood type". Gee, thanks! That's just the information I was looking for! So, now I have to wait until Monday afternoon for the important results. Gotta love the doctor sometimes. :)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

My first Dr. appointment

I had my first appointment this morning. I am just about 6 weeks along if you count from my last period. Anyway, Darren didn't come with me this time. It was fine with me. The first appointment isn't very exciting, lots of sitting and waiting. I had an exam and then we talked about things for a while and I had some blood drawn. My Dr. says everything looks good so far. The bloodwork is to check my hormone levels. I'm supposed to call tomorrow to talk with the nurse about the results. I'm told they can get a more accurate picture of how far along I am based on different hormone levels. That's pretty much it for now. My first ultrasound will be in 3 weeks. My doctor didn't want to do it this early since there isn't much to see anyway. She says we will definitely see a heartbeat in 3 weeks and after you see a fetus with a heartbeat the chance of miscarriage drops to 5%. I'm feeling pretty good about things at the moment. I have symptoms, so that is reassuring. I haven't thrown up, but I do feel nauseous off and on. I'm also tired all the time and I always have painful breasts. Those are the 3 main early pregnancy symptoms, so it seems like I'm in good shape so far. I just have to get through the next 3 weeks and I will feel much better about everything.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

And the leader is............Xb

So the FJ Cruiser is out. Eric and Angela met up with us at a Toyota dealership. They quickly let me know how difficult it would be to put a baby in the back. Plus it's just too un-me. Doesn't make sense except for its' bad ass looks. The Xb can work with a few upgrades. Still pondering lease or buy. Leaning toward buy...sure would be nice to NOT have car payment. Stay tuned.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

My turn to post...

Yeah...well quite the surprise this past weekend. I wasn't expecting it at all and I only took a pregnancy test because I was late and I decided to make sure I wasn't. It was quite a shock for it to turn up positive. I am very happy about it! It definitely takes away the stress of trying and wondering up until the time I can test. I am having a hard time with things though. Its hard to not think about what happened last time. I honestly am having a hard time getting excited about things right now. I just keep thinking that I have to get through the first 12 weeks before I can be really comfortable with it all. I have my first doctor's appointment next Thursday. I know they are going to do an early ultrasound, but I think they will probably wait another week or two after the first appointment. I'm sure I will feel much better after that first ultrasound. For now I'm just trying not too think too much. Of course, I have all these crappy symptoms to deal with too. I haven't thrown up yet, but I am nauseous most of the time and I am constantly exhausted. It actually makes me feel more comfortable to have crappy symptoms. To me it reassures me that things are normal.

As far as Darren's post goes, there is no way in hell I will ever give up my Prius to him and drive a damn SUV! I love my Prius too much to give it away. I am really not concerned about having to bend down to put a baby in a car seat. The ONLY reason I am not contesting the SUV idea is that Darren really only has a 10 minute drive maybe twice a week, so gas mileage isn't a big concern. Plus, he won't shut up about it so I just finally said ok.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

To SUV or not to SUV

So a while back I posted about what I should do when my lease is up (just 6 more months). Well now that I am getting closer my ideas have almost totally changed. Everyone.....well almost everyone I know...who has a kid has a SUV. They state it's much easier to put a kid in and out of an SUV vs a car. Having to stoop and bend over all the time gets old. That combined with the amount of stuff babies need when they travel (not sure what...I do fine with a magazine and a diet pepsi max) means WE should get an SUV as well.

With that in mind I like the Toyota 4Runner, Toyota FJ Cruiser, Mazda CX-7 and a distant finalist is the Mazda5 wagon thingy. I would move the Mazda5 up higher if it had more guts....too slow. The CX-7 requires premium fuel.....thus it's third place spot. The 4Runner and FJ Cruiser are neck and neck. I do NOT want any Honda product. They make good cars....but I just don't care for them. Time will tell. For a while I thought about a Prius...but that's a car. I might consider a domestic SUV if I can get a killer deal like $1000's off + 0% financing. Kelli has given in to the SUV thing as well. I already forecast really buying the SUV for her and I get the Prius.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Back in the saddle again

So we....err....Kelli is pregnant again. This was a surprise to both of us. Ya see we had been protecting ourselves since November. While in Chicago we didn't. The only time we didn't. Kelli was sure it was safe. Hmmm yeah. Good news is we are preggo. Bad news is we didn't reach our weight loss goals. We still have to work toward them. I refuse to be overweight parents. So looks like it will be a November kiddo. Update your favorites or better yet subscribe to this site by clicking on that orange square up on the address bar.