Monday, June 23, 2008
Back to Square One
Well, my results came back from the blood tests at the hematologist and I am apparently completely normal. I don't have a deficiency at all. This means a few things. 1) I am completely normal and healthy, 2) LabCorp is a bunch of f#%$ ups and they screwed up my tests 3) I have no clue what to do next. They were going to contact my gynecologist today and give her the results. I will wait a day or two to see if she calls me. If not then I will call her and see if there are any more tests to do. I am really conflicted about this. On the one hand its great that I don't have any problems, but on the other hand now I have absolutely no answers to the reason for my miscarriages. It was nice to believe there was a fixable reason and now there is just uncertainty again. There is a possibility that I will not find an answer. I'm not sure what we will do then. I am inclined to try one more time anyway and just see what happens. It could be that I just had 2 miscarriages for various reasons and the next time will be fine. I would hate to go through a miscarriage again though. I'm going to try not to think about it for a few days and hopefully I will feel better if I can talk with my doctor. This has been a very frustrating experience and I am very unhappy at the moment.