Back to Square One

Well, my results came back from the blood tests at the hematologist and I am apparently completely normal.  I don't have a deficiency at all.  This means a few things.  1) I am completely normal and healthy, 2) LabCorp is a bunch of f#%$ ups and they screwed up my tests 3) I have no clue what to do next.  They were going to contact my gynecologist today and give her the results.  I will wait a day or two to see if she calls me.  If not then I will call her and see if there are any more tests to do.  I am really conflicted about this.  On the one hand its great that I don't have any problems, but on the other hand now I have absolutely no answers to the reason for my miscarriages.  It was nice to believe there was a fixable reason and now there is just uncertainty again.  There is a possibility that I will not find an answer.  I'm not sure what we will do then.  I am inclined to try one more time anyway and just see what happens.  It could be that I just had 2 miscarriages for various reasons and the next time will be fine.  I would hate to go through a miscarriage again though.  I'm going to try not to think about it for a few days and hopefully I will feel better if I can talk with my doctor.  This has been a very frustrating experience and I am very unhappy at the moment.